A Summer Night of Discontent

discontentI’m tired.

Tired of all the games we people play. They bug you and then ask you if you’re okay. Then you give them hugs and kisses to tell them yes, you are okay.

But you know deep inside you’re not but hey, you’re not supposed to tell. Because if you do, it would just be an endless cycle of nothing but foolish games.

At my age I am done with all of it.

I just wanted to have some quiet time thinking about all those stars and all the eclipses that I have missed. And think about the old days that we should have been sharing in the years to come and wonder if we would still ever kiss.

I’m tired of all the questions that do not deserve answers.

Questions that should have been answered by clearly displayed resolute actions. Feats that simply cannot be mitigated by words alone. Self-imagined unseen ghosts that clearly had no bearings to reality have been, time and again, brought into play to serve as its customary bogeymen. Clearly the dictum of repetition is a powerful tool to make things happen. It’s both a prayer and a wish. And in this sense the mind can both be powerful and terrible.

Tell the universe what you want and it will give it to you. Just be careful what you wish for. Because in a summer night of your discontent, you just never know, it might finally come true.

I’m tired of all the drama that happiness brings.

Happiness, like everything else, is a two-edged sword. Whatever brings you joy, unfortunately, also brings you pain. It is a bitter pill that we all needed to take. The trick is to try to dismiss the pain while trying to magnify the joys.

And believe that the happiness is worth more than just the pain.

I knew a guy named Happy. As cheesy as it was, now I wish I could’ve been him. He doesn’t need to prove anything. In fact it’s the other way around. And I’m tired of trying to prove myself every single time. Especially to the very same person who should NOT have been asking for it in the first place.

One of the things I’ve learned with all that I have gone through in life is to appreciate what I have.

For if you can’t be happy with anything, you won’t be happy with everything.

The Days of Future Past
I Am My Father's Son
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5 Comments

  1. “For if you can’t be happy with anything, you won’t be happy with everything”
    True as it said.

  2. BURAOT (Author)

    hi Martin…

  3. hi kuya B.. agree ako dun sa statement mo na whatever brings u joy, also brings u pain..
    one of the sources of my happiness is also the cause why i am hurting…

  4. BURAOT (Author)

    ganun ata naman talaga. sa experience ko, laging two-way ang mga bagay bagay.

  5. lee: Disagree po, heheheh

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